Blue October

I’m sitting here, 2am, listening to lot of random Blue October songs…thinking about how I should be sleeping, how I can’t sleep, how I want to dream, how I should be thinking about homework and tests and papers and school…it’s all so soon…finals are coming…I’m not prepared yet…but I’m listening to this music, fully awake, and typing this.

Blue October has such touching music. I really can’t describe it. I actually have a playlist on iTunes devoted to their music alone. Nothing but their music can make me think in the way that I do when I listen to them.

So many inspirational, sad, heart-wrenching, memory-inducing, dream-filled songs and lines and phrases…

Is it the harmonica? The violin? Those certainly set their music apart from any other group’s.

Some lines that always get me in one way or another, for some reason or another…

“Now the twisted part…where did all my idols end up? …They’ve all passed away.”
“….so sure the story of my life would never change…but in a bright-eyed way, I rinsed out the soap in my eyes…”
“You give me a quiet mind…”
“There’s some kind of life at the end…”
“…you make me smile.”
“Once so hard to speak, now so easy to play around…”
“Could you be the one who’s not afraid to look me in the eye? I swear I would collapse if I would tell how I think you fell from the sky…”
“Sleep, my lap will be your pillow, steering wheel turn…”
“I spin, colliding into sound…I’m cold as cold as cold can be…”
“I came to see the light in my best friend. You seem as happy as you’ve ever been. My chance of being open is broken…my words, they don’t come out right, but I’ll try to say I’m happy for you…”
“Delay the mournful words of complicated overcast…please take the message that you’ve taught me how to live at last.”
“I lost a piece of me and you…I think I left it in your arms…I forget the reasons I got scared, but remember that I cared quite a lot.”
“I’m gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.”
“I’ve already spent living half my life undone.”
“Hate me today. Hate me tomorrow. Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you.”
“…and with a sad heart, I say ‘bye’ to you and wave…kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made.”
“See here they are the bruises, and some were self-inflicted, and some showed up along the way. So I nod my head, I’m ready for the world to see…”
“…or call it rock, or pop, or Bach, or fuck!”
“How do you tell your father that you want him to notice you? Why does this seem like such a bother? When Mom says, ‘You’d be better off dead, but I want to see you…I still want to see you…’”
“…but maybe life’s not for everyone…”
“…if that’s OK, well then…by your side I’ll stay forever…here I’m standing up…because I want to fall in love! Forever. Here I’m standing up…because I want to fall. And all our kids would play, a sunless day, the rain would come…the rain always brings our heroes. And all our kids could play, a sunless day, the rain would come…the rain always brings our heroes! Believe in heroes!”
“I only want you to see my favorite part of me…and not my ugly side…”

I remember the first time I heard them was last year, on the radio…it was ‘Hate Me.’ I wouldn’t consider myself ‘emo,’ but that song seriously moved me. I won’t forget that moment, and I won’t be forgetting about Blue October anytime soon…

Dan in Real Life

I saw Dan in Real Life today with my mom.

Starring Steve Carell, Dane Cook, and Juliette Binoche (haha before I saw her in this movie, I thought she was in her 70’s, 80’s?!).

What an amazing movie! A perfect family film for all ages, a great plot, amazing acting, writing, directing, lighting, set, casting, story, etc.! Just perfect! Really. Very touching, good values and morals and life lessons. Seriously good film.

There were very sad parts and very funny parts. Hey, it’s Steve Carell…how can it NOT be awesome or funny?

SEE IT NOW. I’d give it an A+. If it doesn’t win some major awards, I’ll be very surprised.

New Titanic?

Ridiculous.

A cruise ship ‘Explorer’ recently sunk off the coast of Antarctica. No one was injured, but many people endured horrible freezing temperatures. How insane.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20071124/ap_on_re_la_am_ca/antarctica_ship_sinking

Luckily all 154 Americans and Britons were rescued from the sinking Canadian ship.

I would have thought after Titanic, you know…wow. Just wow.

Preparation and excitement

8am – 12pm
Cleaning.

12pm
Emily arrives unexpectedly. I drive us to lunch at a Chinese buffet.

2pm
I call eBlaze, tell her we’ll be at her house soon (what a lie).

2:45pm
We arrive at old high school, class has just let out. We visit our favorite teachers.

4pm
Arrive home, see that my sister has also arrived, only minutes before myself.

4pm – 8pm
Cleaning.

8:30pm
Leave for movie, August Rush.

11pm
Arrive home. A little more cleaning.

2:45am
I write this.

GO SEE AUGUST RUSH. It was seriously incredible. Very touching and beautifully done.

Tomorrow (actually today) is the big day! Extended family expected. Good times/good food to be had by all. I’m excited!

Happy Thanksgiving, Americans!

Home, life, and Thanksgiving

So many things to mention.

I came home today. Hurrah for 4-hour drives! Oh well. I drove my apartment mate home too, so it made the drive a lot more entertaining, anyway. I’m glad to be home. No joke.

Tomorrow I get to clean, visit past teachers, my sister comes home, and then we’ll see a movie (August Rush) that night. Cool! I haven’t seen my sister in a while. It’ll be good.

Then Thursday is the big day! We might have a few family members over, if they’re not all sick by then. A few of them have become ill, so we’ll see. No big deal if not too many people can come…I’ve actually been rooting for an immediate-family-only Thanksgiving for a few years now…

That night, we plan to sit down as a family and finally watch our video we took in Europe 5 years ago, that we still haven’t seen yet. Ridiculous!

And, as it turns out, I can’t major in ESL. It’s just an endorsement to my Secondary Education certification. Great. I guess I’ll still go for it anyway. But now I have to actually find another major, besides East Asian Studies. I’m thinking about German, web/graphic design, or video editing…who knows? (Not me!)

I’ve got a lot to be thankful for, I know that. Too much to mention here. A few of them would be: my truest friends, my family, my pets, the obvious ones that everyone says, but also I’m grateful for the fact I have understanding and patient parents (for the most-part), good and interesting teachers, and the chance to go to a wonderful school, where I am learning a LOT. There are other things too…I just can’t think of them all right now. It’s 4am for me, technically…I haven’t slept in more than 30 hours…

What are YOU thankful for? Tell me!